i realise that im damn lame. the post look stupid. but nvm. its helps. haha.

im jealous. fucking jealous. argh. the stupid idiotic comparing results period is up. i hate it when there is somethings for the insensitive adults to compare and i have 3 more years. haiish. projects are killing me. sch is killing me.

I WANT TO PLAY. I WANT JUDO! I WANT I WANT I WANT TO EAT GUMMY BEARS AND TAU HUAY. CUX GUMMY BEARS CANT FIGHT U WHEN U BITE THEIR HEADS OFF!!!

i decided i MIA long enough. err. life hasnt been changing and im not socialising as much alr. damn. haha. oliviaaaaaa

Its unevitable that things cropped up. but it sucks to have it everyday. sheez. i wan PEACE.
bad mood. really bad mood. aaaahh!!! get me a sea shell that can absorb everything i shout.
ache-ing real badly, its gonna be a long~ night..

I got caught again. dont knw what to do. which side to choose. furthermore, im kind of pestered in a way. rly very uncomfortable with that frustration growing inside me. however whatever that is bothering me cant be said aloud. i wonder why im not a mute when i was born.
I cant shout, cant scream, cannot do anything. I cant blame u for not being here when i need u. Cause i have a part to play in it. My limited freedom makes me want to have nth i want permanently. like how easily i can be chuck aside.

disappointed sia, i got like SUPER MANY bruise on me. wth. my nose has one too. that one thanks to brandon. he trying to disfigure me sia. =.=!!

sometimes we complained that we do not have a choice. other times, we were given a choice and is in a dilemma due to it. now, what is it that we are troubled abt. it is the contradicting feeling that makes u complain. when u dont have a choice, its not really that u dont have one, but rather not given the opportunity to make a decision.. its so thin; the thread that separates it. same to friends and lovers, the thread that binds people, separate people, its so thin and almost invisible that all it takes is a strong gust of wind to blow it apart.

1. someone sold me out in facebook. told my parents abt some things. so nth personal will be written there anymore. either i shut the fuck up and write it here. some people just fuckingly dont understand that when ppl approve u as their frens oni they can read it. go around telling other ppl things. betray the fucking trust. so im gonna be honest. i dont care who came across this livejournal by luck or whatever. if u ever leak anything else out and i find out its u. thats the end of us. i dont care how close u are to me now or whatever but if u sell me out for whatever bullshit reason like for my wellfare and etc, i wont forgive u. i SWEAR.

2. im am going to change this livejournal address, and only the confirm few of you will be notified. this is to take away unwanted strangers. and if im in ur fren list. please del my link.

3. i totally understand why they are called adults and us kid/teenagers/preteens and whatsoever. they have totally no idea what we are talking abt. say we are stubborn. they are actually no better. why conflict, cux they ALSO refuse to step back.

4. accusing. if accusing was fine, why the law was setup. nevermind, not like it nvr happened to anyyone else.

5. Oli no need too curious, i will update u de

就这样静悄悄不要惹祸,我没有别要求.

im still unhappy. so wth is wrong w life. im stuck in this stupid home with plenty of housework and responsibility to carry. I dont care if no one thank me. at least DONT malign me. u use every single thing i ask u for permission to blame me. saying i have attitude problem cux u dont let me go out. come on, i alr did what i was told. and u are unsatisfied. ppl dont smile u say they attitude. then u flare up. its just an excuse cux u want ppl to scold. so what if u are the head of the household. cux u are spoilt. u spoil that stupid son of urs, expect ppl to discipline him and when we do, u say we have no right. so now, u are on huge contradicting existence to whatever u have put ppl up to. this is the end man, its so fucking screwed. i am suppose to teach some one who refused to study, dont bother to ask and is lazy. not scared of being last in class. well done! what a magnificient task i have. if he doesnt do well, plenty of chance not to let me go out again, quit my cca and what else.

say i am bad at decision making, fine, its ur fault too. u ruin every single huge chance i have at making decisions. why, when ppl make a choice u say no. and u give a choice and blame ppl for not making the right choice. and then when ppl dont make a choice u blame 'em. so what, u are the perfectionist, u make all the right choice. then why am i ur daughter. why are u complaining that im a useless daughter, cux u cant make the right choice too. i hope one day, whether i died or decides to leave this god forsaken place, u will read this. because it will tell u that since i bothered to LJ this,i dont love u at all.

ppl who read this will have opinions but whatever u wanna think, go ahead, i am not those goody mommy girls out there. I was nvr the girl i am infront of her.